A tangle.

A gossamer tangle of cobwebs.
A million threads tied in a knot.
Infinite lines radiating from this standstill;
Diverging, converging, entwining,
Yet each leading its own separate way,
Laughing at the ineptitude of crossroads.

If only I stood at mere crossroads
And every picture were cut black and white
With none of these confounding shades of grey,
Would the choice have been any easier then?

3rd April, 2003
At the back of a tattered physics notebook

Blue

Blue.
Not entirely though…
Purple?
Possibly.
A royal one.
Pink?
I wish.
Fuchsia maybe. A blotchy red-purple-pink.

Yes..
That Is how I feel.
Red.
Blue.
Purple.
Vivid shades all. No tempering china clay to dilute the gaudy brilliance of any colour.

pain

At the centre of my being,
Like curling wisps of smoke
Or rose-green tendrils too delicate to touch,
They reach out;
Seeking,
Finding.
Clinging lovingly.
And in vain do I shut all these doors on them.
Pouring in through gaps and crevices
They shall melt all that stands in between
And slowly rase all barriers.
Spread to caress me, devour me, consume me.
And this knot at the centre of my being
Shall be all that bears witness to the end.

incomplete verses

Incomplete
         verses,
                 for my thoughts are a psychedelic swirl
                 which crumble like crayons on paper.
         letters,
                 for to find an answer to this riddle of us
                 is to gather silver in a pail from starry seas.
         sentences,
                 because the hapless paupers my words are
                 cannot give you all I want you to know.
         conversations
                 that hang in the void between us,
                 now tread on only by a taciturn silence.
         distance,
                 for it is littered with disjointed fragments
                 of incomplete letters, sentences and conversations.

Papercuts

28th Feb 2006, Mum's birthday