I do not want to be a well considered choice. I don't want to be the best bet.
I want to be the impulsive decision you know you might regret having made, but cant possibly stop yourself from making while you stand here in this moment.
Is that too much to ask for? Or is a person you are almost addicted to too high a price to squander on a naïve, unrealistic whim?
Someday I shall be able to decide. Today is just not that day.
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As it turned out, I survived well enough without him. And he without me. Though sometimes there still is this nagging feeling at the back of my thoughts that it would've been a glorious life, had he still been a part of me.
