I do not want to be a well considered choice. I don't want to be the best bet.
I want to be the impulsive decision you know you might regret having made, but cant possibly stop yourself from making while you stand here in this moment.
Is that too much to ask for? Or is a person you are almost addicted to too high a price to squander on a naïve, unrealistic whim?
Someday I shall be able to decide. Today is just not that day.
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As it turned out, I survived well enough without him. And he without me. Though sometimes there still is this nagging feeling at the back of my thoughts that it would've been a glorious life, had he still been a part of me.
2 comments:
"I do not want to be a well considered choice....I want to be the impulsive decision you know you might regret having made, but cant possibly stop yourself from making while you stand here in this moment."
Are u sure? Is that u really want? The "impulsive decision"- the desire, the want?
Or is it that you want to dominate, manipulate and command and destroy sublimely, to be recognized and to be cherished forever...Cherish ah that word one of the deepest of the human desire...
Too much - may be yes!!! but the next statement confuses me!"Or is a person you are almost addicted to too high a price to squander on a naïve, unrealistic whim?" what r u searching gal...the answer is a "DEFINATE NO!!!"
But u know what it somtimes just feels so right to be wrong.
Impulsive decisionyou know you might regret having made, but cant possibly stop yourself from making
"It's hard to fight impulsive desires.. whatever it wants it will take at the cost of soul"
- herectilus
That truly was all I wanted from him. To want me, and not just because i ticked all the imaginary boxes in his head.
The sentence you found confusing, on second reading, is a bad jump of perspective on my part for which I apologise. I meant to wonder whether my whim of wanting him to want me for the 'right' reasons was worth losing a dear friend over.
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